Red & Black

Anti-ageing Therapy..

So here I am, arrived where most girls never wanna go.just turned 30, and dying to write about it. It’s more then a week since trying to gather some great words about turning 30. So exited! So much to share about turning 30, I mean c’mon it's a milestone of your life. (Now I actually understand that pain of turning 30. Oh God Why! Why me! Why!)

You are 30! You know better now, you are so clear and mature. You know most about life, you have it all figured out and you know what you want, what you have achieved! (That’s what you'd think!)You have a life partner, have a house, You are financially secure (what does that mean!), you have 10 years old license (just got it 2months back) Now the only question remains is that how will you contribute to the world, what do you do to be remembered by, plan and start saving for retirement (planning to start my career!!)That is what happens when you are thirty! Right! (Or at-least in my dreams)

All I now is, I am still alive! Happy! and beautiful. Not to mention the stress to figure out my career. But oh well, who is perfectly happy! The thing that matters to me and I think about is what have I done in THIRTYYYY years that I can be proud of! (Oh gosh! it's high time to look in to it)

And again it’s not like I have not achieved any thing! My biggest achievement so far (the best achievement any one could ever have) is, My awesome hubby and my gorgeous delicate flower. Whom I am super proud to have achieved and she runs my life pretty much (isn't she most adorable, now you know why I am super happy!)

Let’s do a little analysis of 29 years of my life, shall we!

What I have learned so far is that I have learned to love my self. It took me good while to be able to love my self for what I am. (You know those complexes about your self when just turn 20, and never good enough for your expectation. trying to be like someone. but never sure what you really like)yeah took me a decade to understand and like my self.

I have learned to let go and forgive. Understood that no point carrying silly baggage of anger and hate. all it does that harm me.

I have fallen over my nose thousands of times for not listening to my heart, so now I know for sure that listen to my heart always always!

I have also learned to move on! (Which I badly needed)

Other then that, most people at-least figures out their personal style by thirty. In my case I have to first start earning, before I can even think about figuring out my fashion style. But I have to say that I am managing to dress well enough to hide my bulges!

What will I do,

Its sure is the time to start looking after my self very closely. Past thirty if you are not careful you could get in trouble later. Now I am gonna take my health, sleep and food very seriously. Because if you really wanna save your self from huge depression of turning 40, only tool you have is to feel youthful and great about your self, so I my mission starts now.

Most important of all is to figure out to be happy in the moment, which I am practicing very hard. I believe that To feel great at any stage of your life all you need is to be happy and healthy. And to find happiness in every little thing there is no better tool then being grateful. I have started to write gratitude journal for a year and it changes your perspective towards every little thing. You are much much more satisfied, appreciative and happy.

Ps: one more thing I love about being thirty is that, those first days of sex are over, when you are overwhelmed, curious and confused, what all you tried to know secretly is miles away from reality. And you make stupid mistakes. I am glad to have been there..! done that and know that is beautiful:-)

And…And…And (wait I am not finished yet!) Beeeest of allll is that scary day has come and gone I finally am 30! it in it’s self it very reliving. You know when people freak you out with all scary stories about turning thirty and how you don’t want that day to arrive when you are really scared of something! Oh that anxiety of it’s coming soon! It’s over I am thirty

Tell you what! It was all right actually. I felt very good it feels like an achievement in it’s self. Don’t worry dive in  it’s beautiful. J

PPS: If you still want to know more, why turning 30 is awesome or wanna make your self a little light from all turning 30 pressure. Check out this post, I came across this and could not stop laughing.  It’s awesome and super funny!

http://www.buzzfeed.com/annanorth/30-things-that-are-awesome-about-being-30

Love !!

Shona (that’s what my husband likes to call me with love!!_:-))

Mission SunGlasses

Can never find a right pair of sunglasses, They are two big, to wide,  could co with other colour!!! I mean c'mon would someone design one pair of sunglasses that I can wear and not look like a funny creature !!!

I have a round face with wide jaw possible and a cute little nose fixed just bellow my two awfully small eyes.
If I dare to try black sunglasses on, some volunteers jumps out to help a blind woman!
I can do with brown sunglasses, however trying to be trendy with sunglasses is not my cup of tea.

Such a Mission to find a pair of sunglasses for me! summer is coming so lets hit the road:-)

The ultimate TRUTH..

Hello friends,

If you are reading this blog I guess you might be a little like me, or you might think who is this crazy lady,

But. Today all I am going to do, is speak the truth, I am fed up of trying to something I barely know or understand. Oh God!! It’s such a pressure to try and please people! After two unsuccessful trials this is my third blog. Always making excuses about the name of the blog and so on! In reality all that is not so much that matters but the content of the blog is something that works or not. So you know what, let’s just be real now, Let’s meet my real self let’s finally face it!. What I can do and write might not be very interesting for many people, but let this blog touch those people who are like me. May be very little people or none at all. But at-least I will be my self and will find out what a unique creature am I !

Ok! So I am this 30 years old mother and a wife, after all this years still confused about my career. Struggling to make living out of what I love to do, but not giving up (No matter what, I will surely get there!) It’s been three years since I am trying to follow my passion. What is it?  (You might wonder!), well since the teen age fashion has been my passion and illustrations and photography! Oh what can I say! I love them. When I see other people leaving my dream I get jealous and also it gives me drive to never give up.

My fashion illustrations are no better then a child’s.  But one day I dream to be a fashion illustrator for real. (All though fully frustrated with failed practice! Let me tell you I have been very good with drawings always it’s just that given up my practice, you know! ) I have not been able to finish my fashion studies, but want to sure put together my dream jewellery collection one day!  And I am fairly good street style fashion photographer, struggling to get anything more then bit of praise out of it.

But the fact is that I love fashion, I love photography and illustration.  They keep me close to my passion, fashion.  Let me tell you one more fact! (If you haven’t had enough already) I do not understand this trendy fashion where every one is trying hard to follow and wear same thing, even you have to rip out your pockets. I can’t remember all big designers name (no matter how much I try), nor am I so crazy to buy and wear stuff that is unhealthy for my bank balance. But I love and appreciate creativity that exists in fashion industry. One thing I will never understand is, layering up everything on your body that you can possibly find in your wardrobe, all at the same time, just so that you can get all those people with camera,(like me!..lol) running after you that are hanging out side at the fashion show. 

After reading all this you might be wondering how can fashion be my passion! Well I know for the fact that I looove fashion. However, I might not have figured out the exact definition to be able to share (it’s like one of those things that belongs within you yet hard to express!) But to say little bit, Fashion for me is creativity more then trends. Fashion is an attitude, it is finding your style that represents real you. Fashion is how one carries her self.  Fashion for me is to be who you are from deep within.

Many more things I love to do, we will get to all of them slowly, I wanna be easy on you know! Because I suffer from a bit of talking disorder, my stop-talking button goes missing sometimes.  It takes a little while to open up, now that I have started being my self, you will find that the button will go missing lot more.

Love:-)

Are you ready for Summer!

Summer Will Come soon,  Much to get ready. I know I know summer is way away, specially in the UK (where summer comes only four days in a year !!! ) All the stores are ready !! So let's go.

First thing I need to find a decent saloon who can make my hairy legs clean and beautiful and not charge me my life long saving (I mean c'mon they are all super expensive)...agggrrahh. The biggest headache of my life. I imagine so lucky those girls, who can shave in minutes and go out looking gorgeous. :-(  I have only one life line. Big, Old, Fat, Sticky waxing). I can only dream of being clean and sleek in minutes and go out in beautiful dress(Why it had to me to have such stupid skin that can't put up with simple solution like shaving my arms or legs? why?). In reality I have only two choices empty my bank account in hours or sticking my butt to the floor for whole day.
So I will be on hunt to find a decent saloon .....

Plan awesome Summer Holidays!! believe me or not I am yet to visit Italy, Spain and Switzerland. Must plan something this time.

Best of all, A stylist wardrobe. Cloths that reflect me, my personality.  I mean I have been crazy with my clothes. It's like saw something and looked good to eyes and bought it. I wanna wear an outfit that's me. outfit that I can carry well and goes with my personality. That's the biggest task.
I badly wanna introduce some hat's and Hair bands, (oh no don't get me wrong I do have some normal hair bands) but what I want is one of those fabric tie hair band that you have in front of your hair ! (you know what I mean! who could think that to description of a hair band could be so difficult!) I love love those. I have no clue if it will suit me or not. Yeah! as sad as it could be have never tried one.
But I fall in love every time I see someone wearing them. As I talking about it I think I am gonna do some research on the street about those beautiful, colourful and patterned hair bands. Will soon bring some pictures of latest street style on hair bands. That my help me and inspire me enough to actually buy one :-) What an intelligent idea.  Genius me !!

And much more let me know what's on your list! Give me some good ideas.

PS: As colourful as they are but bikinis and swimsuits are never on my list. But lovely pair of filpflpos and stylist sunglasses sure:-)

Back Stage at Matthew Miller-London Collection: Men 2014-15

For more coverage click below :-)
http://www.phoenixmag.co.uk/fashion/lcm-aw14-backstage-matthew-miller/

My favourite Street Style form London Collection:Men

This year for London Collection: Men 2014-15 I was shooting street style for PHOENIX Magazine.
This is this first time I have shot for LCM, Such fun experience, loved it!

Here are some of my most favourite street styles just for you.
To view more you can always checkout links bellow.

http://www.phoenixmag.co.uk/fashion/street-style-london-collections-men/
http://www.phoenixmag.co.uk/fashion/street-style-london-collections-men-2/
http://www.phoenixmag.co.uk/fashion/street-style-london-collections-men-3/