As you might know I am
all the time crying about my career. So I have now decided that I will have to literally
train my self in designing jewellery, making illustrations and in fashion in
general. Here I am already on it.
While reading through a book a thought hits me! I am always complaining
about why have I still not figured out what I want to do. Why do I not have a
focused vision since childhood and why am I not clear from early age is to what
I want my career to be, like most.
As I was reading a book about a jewellery designer who loved jewellery
from childhood and studied and obviously started a jewellery business. A thought crosses my mind, “how boring
is that!” One way it’s so good that you are clear and you know your path from
the childhood. But on the other hand life becomes too obvious and boring. In my
life there are experiments, failures, success, joy of discovery, adventure and
I have something to complaint to God about!(Lol) I am at the age were I can
consciously enjoy discovering my self, my skills, my flaws. God has actually
given me chance to explore and let the surprises unfold. I have always loved
surprises!
I feel such a great
joy and relief to have figured out this truth.(I just hope that I can actually
live with it! Because lot of these great realisations turn out to be momentary
for me) I have been always pushing and resisting trying to make it work. But
you know what I need to remind my self every time I feel frustrated is that
Explore, learn, and See the world. Not to be afraid or feel complex about not
earning yet.(that’s what I constantly feel) As long as I am trying and
exploring I am in good place, I think. It might work out soon or it may not
work out ever, but y life will always be new, fresh and exciting. I think that makes me happy. (at-lest
for now!)
Lovexx
